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2021.12.06 17:47 ascendviral I made a video exposing another fake Instagram growth service

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2021.12.06 17:47 Substantial-Ad-7406 I'm just feeling a bit defeated. (Trigger warning: mention of drugs, abuse, and suicide)

I'm new here, so sorry if this doesn't belong. I read the rules and I don't thi k I'm breaking any, but I edited out the cussing. I just don't really have anywhere else to turn to. I really need a therapist and I can't seem to find one so I'm just going to unload into the void and hope that someone will care enough to read it. I'm sorry that it's a miniature novel.
Like many of us, I've had depression for as long as I can remember. I just turned 30 and I can't really recall ever being happy. I've always "managed" .. sort of?My coping skills are garbage, and mostly I've just gotten by faking my way through every situation.
Over the last few years, I've been working on a system that seems to really help me keep it all together. I'm learning that my triggers are general chaos in my immediate environment. Meaning, clutter or a mess in my home or an unorganized "to-dos". I've created a routine for keeping things organized that I can't seem to stick to. To-do lists help me see clearly what needs to be done bc otherwise it's a jumbled mess in my head and I get overwhelmed and shut down.
I have found that if I stay on top of things like laundry, dishes, meal prep, and my work schedule, I can think clearly. I'm sure anyone reading this already understands that that's a big ask. But keeping up with these things also leaves room for the days that I just can't. You know, the days when getting out of bed feels like climbing a mountain and making it to the shower feels like running a marathon on an empty stomach. Usually those times only last a day or two, when it gets real bad it can be weeks or months. I've learned to make space for these days, instead of trying to fight them.
It's easier to to allow myself to do nothing all day if I know that I have a plan to keep things moving when I come back around. Plus, if I have a clear list laid out, I've found that sometimes I can even chip away at the easier parts.
Anyway, I've been doing really well (for the most part). That was until Thanksgiving when my brother came to town. My brother and I have an extremely complicated relationship. He's older and when I was little he was my favorite person in the world. He wasn't officially diagnosed with schizophrenia until his mid twenties, but it really started to become a problem when he was a teen and actively abusing any drug he could get his hands on. Our falling out was big and I stopped talking to him for years. About 5 years ago I finally let him back in. He was genuinely trying to be a better person and I figured I couldn't avoid him forever, so I decided to rekindle the relationship, despite all of the pain and trauma surrounding it. We even got close again.
Covid has been hard for everyone and he has been extremely isolated and lonely. The first few times he tried to kill himself (many years ago) he called me to tell me it was my fault. Recently, he had been harassing me for months about why I never come to visit him anymore. He can't seem to understand that I'm always busy trying to make up for the days that I'm a total vegetable. That I'm constantly either working or chasing my own tail.
My mom was picking him up to stay over at their house from Wed-Sat. I decided that he should stay at my place the day before Thanksgiving so we can hang out without the pressure of having to be quiet at 9pm when my parents go to sleep. Also bc I wanted to catch him before his social barometer depleted.
Well, we completely regressed back to the days that led to me kicking him out of my life. I mean, it was bad. I'm surprised no one called the cops. My husband is not a violent person but he had to refrain from getting physical with him. Said he's never seen psychological abuse like the display my brother gave him. The plan was that I would drive my husband, my brother and I to my parents at the crack of dawn (45 min away). Instead I called my mother at 5 in the morning, hyperventilating, and she ended up driving to come get him while I stayed home having a total mental breakdown.
So now, I've not only missed Thanksgiving, but I had agreed to cook the sides this year bc my mom hates cooking. And cooking for Thanksgiving is one of my absolute favorite things to do. Instead, I left a bag on the counter of what I was able to pre-cook while my brother screamed at me and my mom had to cook it all while probably taking verbal abuse from him about how she's failed as a parent and raised such garbage people (his usual rant to her).
So here I am again. Triggered and unable to cope. The panic attack lasted through the following Saturday. And when Sunday came around I tried really hard to get ahead of the episode that I knew was coming. I went grocery shopping, I cleaned the house, and I prepped food for the week. Then I woke up on Monday sick as a dog.
Not unusual because I always get really sick after a panic attack like that. My husband was set to start a new job on Wednesday and all I could think about is how awful it would be if I had covid and he had to call off on his first week. (Another thing that I would have ruined). I tested negative for covid multiple times, it's just a really bad head cold, I guess.
It has been a full week and somehow I'm still not 100%. The cold has moved it's way down and out of my head but now I feel super sick from all of the drainage into my stomach (sorry to be gross). And I still don't have my voice back.
I only managed 20 hours of work last week. My house is a mess. My puppy hasn't been for a walk in days. Every dish in the house is dirty. All of the laundry is dirty. I need to go grocery shopping. All of the progress I've made with my brother has just been thrown down the gutter. I ruined Thanksgiving (did I mention it was my mom's birthday that day?). I can't focus at work. I have appointments that I need to schedule. I'm overwhelmed. I'm too nauseous to eat. And I'm trying to not be any of these things so that I can support my husband at his new job. He suffers from an anxiety disorder and I don't want my mess to trigger any (more) anxiety while he settles into things.
I just wish I could stop time and sleep for a week. I'm about to have 2 weeks off for the holiday - I just need to pull it together to knock out a few projects before then and then I can stare at a wall for as long as I want. Why can't I just pull myself together?
I'm so tired of this 4 steps forward, 3 steps back crap. I'm trying so hard to not "be my depression" and it feels like no matter what I do, I'm never ok.
I spend every ounce of energy on trying to make room for not being ok and I feel so stupid that I didn't see this coming.
If you read this, you have no idea how much I appreciate you. This is really lonely.
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2021.12.06 17:47 According-Stick2324 roll

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2021.12.06 17:47 TotallyLegit13846506 Fast Karma Corporation

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2021.12.06 17:47 Not_Selling_Eth "2.4 g braking is nothing!" 2.4 g braking:

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2021.12.06 17:47 PatthiasMaltauf I’ve had my 01’ Passat B5 wagon for a bit now and I was thinking of doing some visual mods, any suggestions or websites I could use?

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2021.12.06 17:47 thowaway_uwu Do I have derealization?

Hi there. I'm 17, and I think I might have derealization but I'm not sure. I've experienced a lot of anxiety and intrusive thoughts in my life and for a long time I've felt sort of disconnected. Not in the way people usually describe episodes of derealization though. For me, stuff feels real for the most part, it's just that there's a disconnect between my mind and body, I'm there but not really. I also have pretty bad memory loss. Since about 4 years ago I've experienced my days and weeks kind of blending together, and I remember very little of growing up. This is what first led me to think I might have derealization. I know I should go to therapy about this and the other stuff so please don't tell me that because I already know I should lol. As far as I know, I haven't experienced any major trauma that would lead to this (or maybe I just have the wrong definition of trauma), which I've read is a common reason for derealization. Also sorry for any errors, english isn't my native language.
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2021.12.06 17:47 CrassostreaVirginica Youngkin’s wealth helped win him office. Now it’s testing Virginia’s lax ethics laws

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2021.12.06 17:47 imanifestwhatiwant Help

My person and me had been together for nearly two years when he ended it five months ago. We have a super strong connection and were so attached to one another, but be broke up with me because he was overwhelmed by the situation he was in and he couldn’t maintain our relationship at that time. It wasn’t anything between us and he said he wasn’t going to see anyone else. I’ve always known he had some trauma that made him pull away once in a while, but this time, he pulled all the way away. This was a deep, soul level connection. He suppresses his feelings a lot and he’s definitely doing it now. I know he still loves me and I know this is his unresolved trauma and demons. I knew this wasn’t easy for him either, but I decided I would wait. I had asked the universe for a sign a few months ago that everything in this situation would turn out in the way I intended. A sign I wouldn’t be able to ignore. Well, I was in the shower when I asked this and the shower head literally broke- snapped off the handle with no prior warning and water started shooting toward the ceiling. And just a few days ago, I asked to see 888 on a license plate if he was coming back in the way I intend this month. Now, I had been feeling happier the past couple of weeks because I was sure of the connection we had and could honestly feel his return, I was sure he was coming back in December. I saw the 888 on a license plate not long after. I had also been getting good tarot readings, consistent with the story, confirming everything I had manifested. A lot of six of cups in my own readings. The next day I was somewhere near where my person lives and I saw him. There were a lot of factors that went into me being there then, if I had done anything differently, I would’ve missed him. But he was with a girl and he’s now involved with her. I could tell by his body language, and just because I know him like the back of my hand and I know he’s not over me, that he was not that serious with her. I know she’s just a distraction for him, something to take his mind of the hurt he tries so hard not ever feel. I’m not just saying that as a petty ex, but the love have doesn’t go away. We were each other’s comfort and homes. I also know what his affection looks like and there was none there. Of course I was taken aback and heartbroken. We talked a bit in private (well, I cried and reacted how you would expect) and he was not the same person, he was so obviously not happy either. I know the person that I love is still in there, but he just wasn’t him. But later I thought about the odds of seeing him the day after the 888. I was still shattered and my spirit broken, but maybe this is all a part of the grand plan? I wouldn’t be manifesting a person if it wasn’t him and I know this path he is going down isn’t what he wants because I truly do know him better than anyone else does. We talked about our plans and what we wanted and I just think his traumas have made it so he doesn’t believe he can have it. And I read that sometimes, right before we receive our manifestations the opposite happens. But I’m wondering what other people who know about this kind of stuff think is happening and what the best way to manifest him moving forward would be. Any advice on how to manifest the real version of himself back to be everything we were again? I know it’s not ideal when manifesting, but I truly do need this to happen and I would appreciate no judgment regarding that part. I need a foolproof plan that ensures my desires. I would prefer it to be quick because I’ve been at it for a while, alongside doing some healing, but I really will do anything that will work best.
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2021.12.06 17:47 kap10020202 000q010101010

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2021.12.06 17:47 Seely2593 Zekrom adding 10! 0922 9755 6940

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2021.12.06 17:47 TheGroundIsMoist Gbg good requirements

Does anyone have any spreadsheets or information on how gbg good requirements work? I know it’s based on the ages of guild members But I have seen online that the number of members in each age affects the necessity for that good? Also I’ve heard it both ways that if you are the only person in an age and then age up that it won’t require goods from that age. I’ve also heard that it will. Does anyone have any more information on this?
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2021.12.06 17:47 Luc1ann Fell through the world in both worlds I generated

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2021.12.06 17:47 SoccerLiveGoals VIDEO: Everton 0-1 Arsenal - MARTIN ODEGAARD Goal (Full Replay)

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2021.12.06 17:47 RLCD-Bot [Octane] [Lime Octane: Christmas Tree] [Crimson Chequered Flag] [Christmas Wreath] [Binary]

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2021.12.06 17:47 recIpR3oCity2disCi USTX Token|Up Stable Token eXperiment|a TRC20 token, traded in a multi investment DEX with algorithmic reserve minting and burning

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2021.12.06 17:47 kimmingda Change of behavior

Long story short: - me (F22) and a crush (M22) met online - we have been interested in each other for over a year, but can't meet up irl due to COVID - he was always super happy, bubbly etc, a typical extrovert, whereas me, an introvert, have always been much more shy and reserved - recently he became quite cold - we still talk and during our video conversations he cracks laughs and is pretty relaxed even though much much more serious than before, he smiles less - now henever I text him, he replies immediately BUT with just one word, no emoticons etc (it used to be the exact opposite). He also stopped texting me first. - last "normal" message was when I asked him whether he wants to come to my city once COVID is over and he seemed enthusiastic. But after that - complete silence/one word replies.
Any guesses why his behavior might have changed?
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2021.12.06 17:47 stacysmith708 Did anyone hear back for round 1 early decision yet?

Results day is dec 15th. If I haven’t heard back yet is that a good sign ?
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2021.12.06 17:47 PerfectAd7828 Holy crap

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2021.12.06 17:47 Duchamp_in_motion Does your partner sometimes think you're asking for too much attention?

I enjoy being alone, and so does my ND (ADHD) partner... But sometimes I really want to spend more time with him. Tonight we spent time together making dinner and ate, so that was about 2-3 hours. Then he wanted to go back to gaming alone in his room. But I wanted to sit with him with my laptop and game too. I just wanted his presence in the room with me. But he didn't want that, and I got a little upset. So I went to my room and sulked.
It's just that this is a recurrent thing and it makes me feel so needy and like I'm asking too much... Every single day, after work, all he wants to do is game. It kinda hurts me that he's so withdrawn and pushes me away.
I can't tell if I'm asking too much and being unreasonable. He always tells me I'm overreacting. I dunno.... Help?
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2021.12.06 17:47 pakepake Sunset - 11/14/22. Shot from Sky Blossom patio.

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2021.12.06 17:47 woogaly Slayer Transfer from pathfinder Feedback
I was trying to move the slayer from pathfinder to 5e and was curious if this seemed at all balanced as a base without martial archetypes added in yet.

Based on what this class did it kinda melded ranger, rogue, and fighter into a single martial class.
Was curious if it seemed unnecessary or overpowered at all.

Thanks in advance
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2021.12.06 17:47 Typical_Loquat_6518 Zekrom raid 4169 7572 4744

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